I've made a decision. It was pretty easy to make because I've been thinking about it for awhile anyway. I have decided I am homeschooling the kids. I don't think much of public education and I honestly can't justify spending money on private school when I am perfectly capable of teaching them everything they need to know, and probably more. I am actually becoming quite a fan of the unschooling line of thought, but more on that later. Anyway, traditional school is not an option anymore. Because I am sickened by what has occurred in schools this last week. They are no longer safe in my book. They are becoming a target more and more often and I will not allow my children to become sitting ducks.
What is going on? Why is there such a lack of respect for human life? A lack of love? Why is there such a sense of entitlement? An inability to think of the greater good? Where is our sense of community?
I really don't understand. It scares the crap out of me though. I don't feel safe anymore. Whenever I am in any public situation I feel like I am guard, looking for suspicious people. Making sure there isn't someone who looks like they might whip out a gun, who might grab one of them when I'm not looking. It's a horrible thing, being a parent, recognizing the evil in the world and trying to portray strength to your kids all the while knowing that everything could change in the blink of an eye.
So I will be doing what I can. I will keep my kids as close to me as possible for as long as they will let me. And I don't know how I'll ever sleep once they are out on their own.